Imaginal Journeys in the Underworld

  While I still don’t fully understand what’s going on with me, I feel a visceral sort of settling. My body feels at ease with what is happening even if my mind is perplexed and doesn’t know what to think. Also, these experiences don’t seem to be feeding my ego; i.e., I'm not aware of taking pride in them or using them to prop up my self image. Rather than my ego doing anything, I feel like I’m partly a channel for True Nature. It’s coming through me, I’m not doing anything. There’s more than that, though, because there does seem to be a unique contribution. I’m having these experiences because there is something unique about my soul and its capacities. It’s designed for these kinds of experiences. The transformation of my soul has been the result of years of hard work, both on “my” part and the part of True Nature - thanks to the Diamond Approach. The teaching is effective at clarifying the soul, thinning out the ego and instinctual structures so that True Nature can shine through...

  As time goes on and I have more experiences with what I have termed my past life, it is clear that some of the impressions are visions that this previous I had and some of them are actual memories. I am retrieving bits and pieces here and there, things that were seminal events in “my” life. I’m beginning to think that “I” had visions a lot and they often happened at random times; i.e., not just during rituals. If I were alive today in this present moment, I wonder if I would have been considered insane or if I would have been diagnosed with epilepsy. At the time when I lived, however, these visions were considered sacred, although that doesn’t necessarily mean that I was universally embraced by the people of my clan. I get the sense that I had allies in important places, though, (most notably Griffin who was my steadfast protector) and I generally enjoyed a secure--if fringe--place in the community. I wonder how many people who are considered insane in the modern Western world ar...

  Another day, another recovered memory fragment. Actually, a recovered impression is probably closer to the truth. The information revealed is symbolic more than factual, although that doesn’t necessarily mean it’s fictitious. I honestly don’t know what to think about it. If it’s to be believed, this impression is from my past life. It always takes me a while to figure out what’s happening during these things because it’s not obvious. Only after the full thing is revealed can I piece it together. Even then, it’s very likely that my understanding is distorted. Such is the nature of recovering ‘memories’ from past lives - they are perhaps even less reliable than our memories in this life. The nature of this impression makes me wonder if I was epileptic in this past life. It seems like I would be going along in the ‘real world’ and then suddenly move into the spirit realm. This didn’t necessarily correlate to being in a trance or participating in ritual. I’m so thoroughly indoctrinat...

  Last week was the annual Asilomar retreat that usually takes place in California but this year was held on Zoom. The topic was the soul through the various turnings in the Diamond Approach. I attended because I was curious to see what Hameed would say and overall found the teaching affirming. While it’s been a few months since I’ve had regular ‘visitations’ with the Imaginal realm or whatever it is, the experience of being connected to Griffin continues and continues to evolve. I think part of the reason I started having these experiences is tied to him. Perhaps he experienced a spiritual awakening of some sort and I was thereby pulled into his awakening by virtue of our connection. In the subsequent months, my connection with him varies. Sometimes I feel like he’s actively participating and sometimes he feels distracted, distant or asleep. I suspect he is a couple decades younger than I am in this lifetime and is not currently devoted to a spiritual path. Or maybe he’s just begi...